Nowadays I seem to be so lost... I don't find myself happy anymore :(
Its not that I am unhappy in life... just that things/ actions that used to hold my interest earlier don't anymore.
Things like... my work, the stress, pressure related to it, money, people around... nothing is catching my interest levels!
All that I am left with doing nowadays is introspecting. I really want to know what will make 'me' HAPPY!
Its not that I am unhappy in life... just that things/ actions that used to hold my interest earlier don't anymore.
Things like... my work, the stress, pressure related to it, money, people around... nothing is catching my interest levels!
All that I am left with doing nowadays is introspecting. I really want to know what will make 'me' HAPPY!
A career choice that I had taken up with so much of enthusiasm doesn't make me happy anymore....
Money, that I am earning out of my profession, is not making me happy... not that I am not earning good... its a pretty decent sum that I am getting paid but still I am not happy! And the surprising part is, its not that I want more money, but the feeling I am having is 'Is this money that I am earning making me a happy person?'!
People around me are basically good, whatever their selfish interests maybe, but I am not finding any significant difference by their presence in my life... also that I am not making any significant difference in their lives! And believe me, I want to...
For once I don't want to be weighed down by others expectations from me... I want to live life...
I love 'Life'... its really 'Beautiful'... and I truly believe it... but with this kind of a life structure I am not able to live it!
Money, that I am earning out of my profession, is not making me happy... not that I am not earning good... its a pretty decent sum that I am getting paid but still I am not happy! And the surprising part is, its not that I want more money, but the feeling I am having is 'Is this money that I am earning making me a happy person?'!
People around me are basically good, whatever their selfish interests maybe, but I am not finding any significant difference by their presence in my life... also that I am not making any significant difference in their lives! And believe me, I want to...
For once I don't want to be weighed down by others expectations from me... I want to live life...
I love 'Life'... its really 'Beautiful'... and I truly believe it... but with this kind of a life structure I am not able to live it!
I have thought about all this a lot... and I still feel the same. And when the feeling stays for so long... (bouts of dissatisfaction are common)... there is really something that needs to be changed!
I have thought about changing my profession... and thinking on this I have realised that I want to teach... do some social work...
I know I will be getting paid much lesser than what I am getting paid now... but at least I will be going back home with a happy feeling, a feeling that I have made a difference in someone's life for the day! I can also take time out of my 'life' to pursue my interests that have been lying dormant since years... painting, photography, traveling (hmm... just thinking about it is making me smile :D)
Money is important in life... but somehow I have realised that if its not making you happy, its a waste!
Hmm... lets see how I take this up... hope I do something good for myself :)
2 comments:
Wow...do you read minds or what???
You can be good mind reader though!
Really materialistic things dont make us happy, and money could be one of them.
I did learn form this reading.
he he... thanks!
Money doesn't necessarily buy happiness always! I am going through it :-|
And I'm glad it made you think and agree :)
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