Plans plans and more plans... Somehow for me they don't always seem to fall in the right place. Have had some set-backs in the last decade. Not-so-pleasant-learnings that came through in life, something that I should have anticipated being the "Intuitive me!" But alas, I am one of those people who learn from own mistakes :-/
Career wise there were some difficult decisions I had to take, luckily things fell in the right place somehow :) Touch-wood! atleast this is one area of my life where I know where I am heading to. Now I am excitedly looking forth to how this year unfolds itself. Hoping for the best!
On a personal level, life has been not so good. Arrrgh... in fact it sucks! As if the last decade was not enough, I started my new year with some pathetic expectations! Typically emotional me, I still wonder why the hell don't I learn my lessons well :?
Well, finally now (I think) I am pretty clear of where I need to stop my emotions and get practical :)
Few things I still need to figure out for myself this year (hopefull i do figure them out)
Considering that I am nearing 30 (yeah, i just can't believe I crossed nearly half my life span), I still am the conservative daughter to my parents. It is out of love, care and respect towards them that I am still staying with them, but my mind keeps dilly-dallying on the facts and practicality of this decision. But I need to give these thought some rest, coz I don't think my parents are prepared to take a dose of life and practicality from me. For them, the decision of staying in Mumbai is driven by my presence in this city. Given a choice, they would want to move back to their native (which is a pretty decent city). But then what the hell am I going to do with my career is the next question! I have thought over it and decided that I cannot move :-|
People have been asking me questions about what am I planning to do with my 'Life', when am I deciding to 'Settle down' in life... blah blah blah! I really don't have answers for these questions. For me life just doesn't happen in plans. I am not one of those women who have a charted out life plan, like, find a guy by 25, get married by 27, have babies by 30! Looking at the pace that I am going, I don't know when the hell I am even planning to get married.... (See, thats how clueless and vague I am)
I am not 'super happy' with my life and its developments. But when plans just don't work, I believe in leaving it to god! I am sure god exists and (she/he) knows whats right for me... maybe she/he is just a bit too busy attending others ;) I am still in queue maybe :(
But I just want to thank a few people in my life for making my life the way it is now...
My parents - they have been with me through thick and thin, even if they didn't like my decisions (most of the time). I love you mom and I love you a lot dad, its just that I don't know how to tell you both how much you matter to me in my life!
My sis - I really can't mention any particular instance in my life that she has made significant, coz then it will be unfair. Its her mere presence in my life that has made a difference to me! Love you butterfly :-*
My dear 'golu' - (you know I am mentioning about you) Its been so many years, and I still can't precisely mention any one particular moment where your support and presence is not required in my life. You just make life more bearable and easier to understand, at times when I just don't figure out the "Why the hells" :D
Friends and colleagues - Can't mention anyone specifically, but yes each of you through your kindness, friendliness, guidance, support, love & yeah not to forget bitchiness, selfishness, lies, diplomatic games and what not (yeah even these kind of people are worth thanking coz without them I wouldn't have learnt about people and their influences in my life ;) )
So much more to understand, so much to learn... hope I do all this in 2011 :)
Although I am late, but yes I have a list of resolutions to share... maybe in my next post :)
